Saturday, October 15, 2011

Grocery Fantacies

I was really struck yesterday by some of the things Evie, our most recent Accelerated Methadone Detox patient was saying.

While she was still actively using methadone she would wake up daily, feeling sick, then take her meds to feel normal again. That is, what had become normal for her. She never had any energy. She rarely laughed with her kids, and she needed frequent naps.

She said she would go the grocery store and fantasize about the other shoppers. Get your mind out of the gutter—not that kind of fantasizing. She would look at this person and that person and think, “I wonder what it’s like for them to just get up every morning and not need a pill to get moving? How wonderful to just be able to go to the grocery store or the bank or put gas In the car…”

I am tickled to think that Evie is back at her neighborhood grocery store, with a shit-eating grin on her face, rolling a cart around and filling it up with milk and eggs and pasta. I can just imagine her looking around and smiling and nodding at the other shoppers, going,”yeah—here we all are, just buying groceries….how sweet it is!”

Life’s simple pleasures are mighty sweet when you haven’t tasted them in far too long…

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